Bad Bad Girl, a Regular Juvinile Delinquent
I had a dream last night that I was at work and we were closing. My manager and I were about to have sex, but then that teacher guy busted through the door and demanded I stop. I was surprised to see him and asked what he was doing there. He walked up to me and told me how much he loved me. LOVED me? Yeah. My manager stood there looking deflated as teacher man and I kissed. It was a sweet innocent kiss, but full of passion too. My manager asked if it was over between us and I said "it never truly started." He told me he was falling in love with me and hated to see me leave with the teacher guy. I was told to choose between my manager and my ex-teacher. I chose my teacher and the alarm woke me up. I mean, I think I chose him, I was holding his hand at the end and my manager was walking away. What the hell is that supposed to mean? Am I afraid that my manager will actually develop real feelings for me? Will that create problems for me at work? What if he does and I have to choose between him and my ex teacher? Between a sure thing and a possibility? I am confident I would choose the teacher, but what if? The only thing I am sure of is that he and I are not going to actually have sex for a while, if ever, just in case this causual thing gets out of hand.
Sorry for not keeping up to date. Busy. Well, school has been fine and I'm still flirting heavily with my ex-teacher. I think I love him. In the meantime, before I inevitably win him over, : ) I have needs! I've been messing around with my manager still. So far no real sex. Oral sex and I've jerked him off and he's fingered me, but no real sex. I was nervous the first time. He said that it won't interfere with work, and it hasn't yet. Oh my God though, when he came, he came a lot. And he's awfully good with his hands and his toungue. The first time he went down on me I though I was going to explode from how good it felt. Oh my God. We both know it isn't anything serious, and sex is entirely up to me, since we both know he'd be up for it anytime. I don't know though. Today he went down on me after work. We had closed up and no one was around. I wasn't expecting it, but when we went in the back room, supposedly to get something, He told me to sit on one of the crates back there. I was wearing a skirt today, despite the weather, because right before work I had to take a picture with my family. He then kneeled in front of me and picked up the skirt over his head and slid off my underwear. I felt like I was in a bad porno. But then he started. OOOOOOOOOOOOohhhhhhhh does that man have talent! Oh, I though I was going to shatter glass he had me moaning so loud! You see, my first experiences were all with my last boyfriend, the crazy one. I never felt so good. It never felt so good. Oh, to live that omement again and again and again! But it's only physical, and I think we both know that. He knows about my ex teacher, and though he is a little jealous, he encourages me to go after him. I am lucky to have a sex partner like him. He knows though, that the moment I get the teacher where I want him, I will no longer fool around with him, even if he IS my manager. And he swears he won't hold it over my head. And if he did, I could sue him for sexual harrassment from all those times before. The minute I get teacher man, manager guy will be just the manager. That's it and that's all and that's enough. I must go now though, I need to shower and go to bed.
Okay. I thought about it. And I have decided...nothing. I choose not to choose. If it had been my ex-teacher, I know I would have let him go as far as he wanted, but since this obviously is not the case, I figure I'll just let whatever happens happen. If I feel uncomfortable, then I'll stop it all. IF not, then I won't let anything happen. It would be purely sexual though; I have no strong feelings for him as far as "love" or anything like that. Oh well. It isn't as though the teacher guy has been available lately; he's busy at work because of Parent/teacher conferences. Not that we do anything anyway. We just talk and tease eachother, like we're a couple of kids. Bah! Oh well. all for tonight. I have dinner tonight with a few of my friends. Later.
Ohhhh, myyyy, gooood. Sunday night I was left alone to clean up with my manager. We were just kidding around and stuff, but somhow it got all serious. We ended up making out in the back. He was kissing my neck and had his hands all over me and I had my hands on his head and anywhere else I could grab. It was nice, but I told him to stop. I felt it was not right to be doing this at work. He asked me what I wanted and I said, "I don't know. What do you want?" and he said "I want you, can't you see that?" We started up again, but had to stop when we heard the front door opening. Our boss had forgotten something. We got to the front and acted normally. My boss tod us that the place looked good, so we could go home. I had my coat on and had grabbed my purse and was about to walk out the front door and I heard my boss saying something to him and he said "What? I'm sorry, I was thinking of something else." I turned around and he was looking at me, the boss looking at him. I left. I can't fool around with my manager...can I? I don't think I'm in love with him or anything, I mean, I like working with him and he's fun to talk to and I like when he tickles me and stuff....but....to actually mess around with him? DO I want that? I wonder if he's mad at me for stopping him. I don't work until Friday, and only if he's there will I beable to find out. This all has my mind spinning. The look on his face though when he started to kiss my neck. The look on his face the entire time. It was like...woah. I don't even know how to describe it. Oh well. more later, I guess.